Hey, internet.
Well… this time I’ll keep my promise and update right the next day.
So, my dream.
I think Dad’s nice behavior is to blame for that, but it started out (at least, my memory of it starts) with a scene in which I was a very little child and had a birthday. Don’t ask me which one, I can remember the cake in front of me being covered with candles, but I was too little to even speak (other than “dada,” at least). My Dad brought a candle into the room and sang “Happy Birthday” to me, while I sat on the floor looking at everything with wide eyes. Right next to me was my mom – I couldn’t recognize her face, but I knew who she was somehow. Singing as well, she threw golden confetti into the air, which rained down on me. I cheerfully played with it and watched it sparkle, until the cake was finally put down in front of me. My mom took a spoon and tried to feed me a piece, but there still was a burning candle on it, so I refused to take it. I couldn’t just tell my parents though, because I couldn’t talk yet. After a while my Dad just interrupted mom, suggesting to do the paper chase outside he had prepared for me (yeah, because sending a baby on a paper chase is clearly the way to go…) and he picked me up to go outside with me.
The next thing I remember is me outside in the garden, seventeen again and searching. But the paper chase had turned into looking for Easter eggs somehow. So I was peeking under every bush and fence, and when I moved a part of a bush aside a bit, I found a really thick book. I pulled it out from where it was laying and opened it at a random spot, just to see the words “DON’T FOLLOW THE WHITE RABBIT!” spread across the pages I opened. I wondered out loud: “Which white rabbit?” when I already heard something rustling next to me. I looked, and from behind of the bushes, the cutest white bunny I’ve ever seen peeked at me. It was fluffy all around, with big, old-fashioned glasses and a tiny Victorian jacket. When I looked at it, it winced and hopped away, and I followed it, dropping the book the very same instant without a second thought. I chased it quite a while, like in those cartoon sequences where the background can be seen repeating itself over and over again, until I simply stepped on nothing and fell down.
The next part I can remember is me running through a maze of bushes, like the one in the Disney movie. Soon, the card soldiers surrounded me. Their appearances were way more frightening than the ones in the movie though: They had the shapes of people of different ages and genders, but they all wore white masks painted like cards and black suits with ties. Having caught up to me, they tied me up and brought me in front of the Queen of Hearts. You may take an educated guess what she looked like:
Me.
Just in a fancy dress of course. And with a wide smile, she ordered: “Off with the face!” The last thing I can remember about the dream is the feeling of someone grabbing my face. I tried to scream and woke up then.
Well… I know that was short but I feel kind of uneasy talking about it. As about most of those dreams. :( Maybe Story wasn’t right about that after all… on the other hand, I had nightmares less often recently. So maybe it’s helping and just feels shitty though. Like bitter medicine. I’d just need a spoonfull of sugar. :)
I’m going to let that be another pink and fluffy movie now. So…
Bye, internet.